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Elselotte Smink Lifestyle 5 sep 2016 / 10:36 uur

‘Door yoga ben ik over mijn depressie gekomen’

Heidi Williams kreeg een hoop te verduren in haar 27-jarige bestaan. Zo verloor ze bijna haar kindje en kampte ze met depressie en een angststoornis.

Door middel van yoga en zelfacceptatie lukt het Heidi langzaam maar zeker om over haar angsten te komen. Nu inspireert ze met haar foto’s en steungroepen iedereen die vecht tegen psychische ziektes.

Traumatische gebeurtenis

Het lichaam van Heidi’s baby stopt na zes maanden ineens met werken, vertelt de yogi aan Mantra Magazine. „Het was een medisch wonder dat hij het overleefde. Ik was zo geschrokken, dat ik er niet overheen kon komen.” De traumatische gebeurtenis zorgt ervoor dat Heidi blijft hangen in een depressie en angststoornis.

„Op dat moment ontdekte ik yoga. Ik voelde me door middel van die sport eindelijk weer veilig. Ook leerde ik hoe ik de emotionele gebeurtenissen in mijn leven moest accepteren.”

Hulp bieden

Nu heeft Heidi diverse online steungroepen opgericht, waarin ze anderen probeert te helpen. Op haar Instagramaccount plaatst de yogi bijna dagelijks foto’s van prachtige poses, die ze voorziet van inspirerende teksten. Af en toe prijkt haar zoon ook op de kiekjes, die vrolijk meedoet aan de yogahoudingen van zijn moeder.

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I used to think of healing as no longer feeling pain. I used to think that when I was healed, I would feel happiness all the time. That was my goal. To be healed. To get to the end of this miserable road I was on. I used to focus so much on the end result – feeling good again, that I missed something essential. What I didn't realize until a couple weeks ago is that my healing didn't take place at the end when I went to my appointment and came out without a trigger. (if you don't know what I am talking about – read my blog post on PTSD. link is in bio) My healing was happening the moment I watched silas die. It started the second my heart stopped beating. And was my life was derailed forever. My healing consisted of being stretched thin enough that I couldn't bounce back to who I was before. It changed me. It forced me to give up harsh judgements. It allowed me to let go of expectations of who I 'should' be. It opened my eyes to be able to see people for who they are. Deep down. To understand pain. To celebrate health. To really love people. Healing doesn't not come when you are no longer in pain. It does not come when you are feeling happy again. It comes when your heart has been forever changed and you can understand what honest, fierce, unconditional love is. And when you can learn to give it. Freely. Unfiltered. And raw. Top: @lalalandcomfywear

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One of my favorite pictures of us yoga-ing together 😂😄😄 *New post on the blog about HOW SILAS POTTY TRAINED HIMSELF and other bad ass things…* "I have serious insecurities when it comes to my skills as a mother. I've talked a lot about my struggle with PTSD and depression, But not so much about Silas' nature of being an incredibly high maintenance and demanding baby. Add the above together and you have a serious disaster on your hands. All out war at times. The first 2 years of our time together were a complete nightmare. As a result I've kind of kept my wins private and been super hesitant to share them. For a while I just thought "Who am I to share advice on something I not only completely sucked at but also had nothing to do with in regards to our successes?" Not following? Let me explain. Silas potty trained himself. He also weaned himself of breastfeeding. He eats most fruits and vegetables I put in front of him-and we eat a lot of vegetables. He only has a total of maybe a cup of sugary treats a week (including sugary cereal, candy, desserts, etc.) He only watches around 1-3 hrs of T.V. a week. He joyfully goes to his summer camp classes- no crying. Nap time usually happens like this: Me- "Are you ready for a nap? Silas- "yeah, lets go to sleep.". He is an ace at brushing his teeth every night. Bed time is a fairly easy routine and he goes to sleep without a hitch. If I tell him he can't have a treat right now but needs to clean his room first, he says "OK!" If I tell him we have to clean, vacuum and do laundry before he watches a show, he says "let's do it!" And those are just the outward behaviors. I can't even begin to list the kind of emotional maturity this kid has…." I TALK ALL ABOUT HOW WE DO THINGS TO HELP SILAS BECOME SUCCESSFUL. LINK IS IN MY BIO

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The definition of Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results.- Anonymous Who is ready for an EMOTIONAL DETOX?? Starting this Sunday I am hosting my very first 7 DAY EMOTIONAL CLEANSE. During this Cleanse we will be… 1 Identifying  Triggers, self-destructive behavior and false belief systems that have kept you from experiencing the inner strength, peace and happiness you know is inside of you, but seemed buried under trauma or over all a heaviness you cant seem to identify. 2. Challenging, Dismantling and Eradicating the false belief beliefs keeping you stuck in a downward spiral 3. Establishing a new belief system based on your peace and truth.  I will be including Meditations, Yoga, Exercise, Nutrition, Essential Oils, Teas and any other tool that have been my go-to's during my  own healing journey. You can particitpate at whatever level works for you, but I will say, the more you show up, the more results you will get. I will be taking you through a very similar proccess to the one I went through when I cleared my own PTSD trigger. This proccess can be incredibly transformative if you allow it to transform you. With that, I cannot wait to spend the whole week clearing emotional space with you!!! xoxoxoxoxo  See you Sunday!! click the link in bio to join us as we detox our emotions and open ourselves up to new found peace, health and happiness PHOTO WIZARD: @kariannphoto Pants: @flexilexi_fitness

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The miracle is NOT that life is not so bad. The miracle is that EVEN with life as bad as it is, you can rise from those ashes. …………………………………………………… Talked about this on the support group last week……………………………………………….. Photo by my love: @kariannphoto Outfit: my favorite @aloyoga #aloyoga #beagoddess

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For the last day of #FlexiLexiMiniShapes we are doing PYRAMID shapes. Basically more triangles. 😁👍 Im not sure what pose silas is doing… 😂 but downward dog is usually a favorite of his. Hence why we chose it. 😁 Wearing: @flexilexi_fitness

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Silas is making his grand entrance tonight for the #FlexiLexiMiniShapes Come join us for 10 days of mama/papa and mini time while we introduce yoga in a fun way! (See original post for details) ➡If you have a stubborn child (🙋me) don't let that scare you out of joining! Keep in mind: 1- RELAX AND HAVE FUN never force a pose on your little one. This is meant to be fun and exciting for them. If they aren't feeling it that day, dont push it. Or they won't want to do it with you again… Guess how i found that out.. 😂😂😂 2- if your mini isnt into it that day, try the next day or do your best to get them in the picture with you and we'll still count it! We'll also allow some catch up time at the end. So don't stress it. 3- a good way to catch the moment is to video your practice with them. That way if they are the type that lose interest fast, you've got something. Lol

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